Happily Ever After
"Mommy, I don't want cereal my breakfast! It boring! Teacher say it has sweet, sugar and not good for children. I am going to be in the hospital, I don't want more needles!" Alyssa screaming throwing tantrum.
Maid Becca tried to console her. "Then what do you want for your breakfast, honey?" she asked her.
"No honey, that not good too Aunty Becca! I want protein, vitamin and less carbi," she explained. That's quite funny, I can tell.
"You mean carbohydrates my dear. Okay, starting tomorrow, daddy and I will get you ham, chicken breast, fresh fruits and vegetables, and milk for your bones!" while stroking her hair with comb and pins, I looked at her father. So drowned in the news.
"You mind pampering her all her life?" My husband, Franklin said.
"I am not! She's my only baby, you see!" I kissed her cheek.
"Tell me which one do you like for your party tomorrow, darling?" I showed her pictures of cakes on my phone. She turned to her father.
"Mommy, is daddy come? He do not come, I cry mommy," she started sulking.
"I cannot... well you know, Alyssa," Franklin murmured.
"Am I daddy baby mommy? Why daddy don't come? He promise he come last time but he do not come," she questioned me. Maid Becca was trying to take her away so she would not see us quarrelling.
"Dear husband, do you hear that?"
"Baby, I am busy with work and meetings, honey Alyssa. Come and play with your girlfriends. Mommy, Aunt Becca and Uncle Caleb will be there too, " he lied, again. He stopped my little one.
"But daddy, everyone want to see you daddy," my little pony said.
"Yes I know just to tell them they will meet me on the tv soon. I am a busy famous spokeperson for a reality show honey.
And you, yes you my baby, you really need to fix your grammar dear, " he kissed Alyssa's cheeks as she was about to go to her bee and watch Barbie all day.
"Ah for god's sake. Dear Husband, she is only 4. She is still learning her English. At least, you should be thankful that she can speak fluently. And she's not some kind of unwanted accident baby! Oh god, you're sick!" I lost my mind.
"Then why are you pampering her? All her life!
Are you going to...?"
"Stop! She is my, oh no... She is our baby! Of course I want to pamper her. She's only 4.
Well, at least she listens to me and we have a good mother daughter bond. Not like some man who is too busy to even talk to the family. I mean talk and face them, not talk to the paper every single morning!"
"Can you stop yelling? Oh my, what an insolent wife you are!"
He went into our master bedroom as I followed him. I picked up his coat, and tie and keys.
"Keep telling me that! You, yourself is an impudent man." I yelled at him. He just mocked me with his face expression.
Then our little one came " Mommy come and play with me !"
I told her " Later, mommy talk to daddy, alright? He will come to the party tomorrow!"
She was about to go to her room and she came back to us.
"Wait, Daddy, you don't love me, please love mommy. She.... ah what.... she... uh... she sing for me... and... and she cook for you daddy." She rubbed her head and did some thinking.
"I think she love you. But why... daddy? Why... you don't go to my birthday? You don't ... you don't... love me? Please love me daddy." The she went to her room looking down all the way.
.......
My intuition telling me that he still keeps her pictures.
He puts them in the workshop. Keep telling himself that he should have married her on that day. The accident happened in May, five years ago.
He went to the bar almost every night after her death. His ex-fiancee, Diana, fell from a ferris wheel. She was at the theme park and then it turned into a tragedy as she got stucked in the ferris wheel with her friend and in the end he lost her. Just when they were about to be together.
He ran to the hospital to meet her but they said she's already gone. That following week was supposed to be the day they become newlyweds. An unwanted tragedy.
But I came into his life in that loneliness. Even after five years, he still couldn't give me all the love I needed.
..... Now,
I am telling you a story.
I served as a waitress at the bar near the theme park.
"It will reopen in two more days. STUPID businessmen! One death isn't enough for them to close the theme park! " One friend said in the kitchen.
" Giada, you see that man over there. He cried like a river when his ex-fiancee died. She, Diana's the one falling from the ferris wheel," my friend told me.
He found me at the bar, serving drinks. He was lonely.
" I thought if I can find a new girl, I can forgive myself. We had Alyssa but I am .... I don't know. I love you and Alys--" he was lying.
"No you coward! You just dragged me into your guilt. You feel that we're nuisance to you. I came into your life. I wanted you to love me. Not to replace Diana with me! I am not a woman to be loved because of a guilt you had in the past. I gave you love! I gave you a baby and yet you can't even thank me for that! You feel that I am just a thing.... Don't you?"
Tears coming down my cheeks.
"It was a mistake. That night. In the hotel room---"
"So you got drunk, made love with me. You wished that I was your dead fiancee Diana. I am sorry that I am not her!"
I continued.
" I just ask you to behave like a father. Not anything more than that. Five year's a long time for you. But you chose to drooling over the past.
"No, I wanted to leave her too! The reality show's a mess now. I am late for the meeting. We need to get back to work. Baby, can we talk about this later?"
he begged me for all I know he's going to act like no father to my Alyssa and no man to a Giada.
"Say it that you can't take me into your heart, you can't take me into your life, if you can't replace Diana with me. She was your first love, you were supposed to be with her. She's dead now. It's not even your fault.
But...
You took me into your heart. You placed me into your world. Now you let me in. You put a baby in me. And now we're having a family. But you never take me as a person who loves you unconditionally. Even after I gave birth, you never think of me as your lover, wife, or a mother to your baby or even a special person in your life. I can accept that. People say that sooner or later you will accept me and Alyssa. Hella n0!
You thought I was Diana but I can never be her.
All I ever wanted is for you to leave her. 5 years have passed. You and I, we are a family now. Alyssa is ours. If you can never get rid of your love, we will never be happy, Frank.
I will leave you. You can keep thinking about Diana, replacing her with anyone you like.You just make the second greatest mistake in your life! Even with my love for you, my sincerity, our daughter, you just can't be a grateful man. I wish you will die with your Diana and your story " happily ever after". I decided to leave after a few more arguments with him later.
And that's how I got the custody for my Alyssa and I am now a divorced woman.
Unfortunately, it wasn't me who he wanted.
I can never be her.
God knows I loved him with all my life. For him, that night was a mistake. But for me it means something special. I had Alyssa with him, but he never loves me .
What breaks my heart even more is that he never says I love you or sorry. He only utters the word Diana whenever he's sorry.
P.s a very short one cuz I wanted to. Lol.
How many of you feel like this is the reality now or have you ever been in such relationship? To be loved or not, please do appreciate people who love you.
Peace to all my crushes, true loves, and the stupid unrequited love.
Maid Becca tried to console her. "Then what do you want for your breakfast, honey?" she asked her.
"No honey, that not good too Aunty Becca! I want protein, vitamin and less carbi," she explained. That's quite funny, I can tell.
"You mean carbohydrates my dear. Okay, starting tomorrow, daddy and I will get you ham, chicken breast, fresh fruits and vegetables, and milk for your bones!" while stroking her hair with comb and pins, I looked at her father. So drowned in the news.
"You mind pampering her all her life?" My husband, Franklin said.
"I am not! She's my only baby, you see!" I kissed her cheek.
"Tell me which one do you like for your party tomorrow, darling?" I showed her pictures of cakes on my phone. She turned to her father.
"Mommy, is daddy come? He do not come, I cry mommy," she started sulking.
"I cannot... well you know, Alyssa," Franklin murmured.
"Am I daddy baby mommy? Why daddy don't come? He promise he come last time but he do not come," she questioned me. Maid Becca was trying to take her away so she would not see us quarrelling.
"Dear husband, do you hear that?"
"Baby, I am busy with work and meetings, honey Alyssa. Come and play with your girlfriends. Mommy, Aunt Becca and Uncle Caleb will be there too, " he lied, again. He stopped my little one.
"But daddy, everyone want to see you daddy," my little pony said.
"Yes I know just to tell them they will meet me on the tv soon. I am a busy famous spokeperson for a reality show honey.
And you, yes you my baby, you really need to fix your grammar dear, " he kissed Alyssa's cheeks as she was about to go to her bee and watch Barbie all day.
"Ah for god's sake. Dear Husband, she is only 4. She is still learning her English. At least, you should be thankful that she can speak fluently. And she's not some kind of unwanted accident baby! Oh god, you're sick!" I lost my mind.
"Then why are you pampering her? All her life!
Are you going to...?"
"Stop! She is my, oh no... She is our baby! Of course I want to pamper her. She's only 4.
Well, at least she listens to me and we have a good mother daughter bond. Not like some man who is too busy to even talk to the family. I mean talk and face them, not talk to the paper every single morning!"
"Can you stop yelling? Oh my, what an insolent wife you are!"
He went into our master bedroom as I followed him. I picked up his coat, and tie and keys.
"Keep telling me that! You, yourself is an impudent man." I yelled at him. He just mocked me with his face expression.
Then our little one came " Mommy come and play with me !"
I told her " Later, mommy talk to daddy, alright? He will come to the party tomorrow!"
She was about to go to her room and she came back to us.
"Wait, Daddy, you don't love me, please love mommy. She.... ah what.... she... uh... she sing for me... and... and she cook for you daddy." She rubbed her head and did some thinking.
"I think she love you. But why... daddy? Why... you don't go to my birthday? You don't ... you don't... love me? Please love me daddy." The she went to her room looking down all the way.
.......
My intuition telling me that he still keeps her pictures.
He puts them in the workshop. Keep telling himself that he should have married her on that day. The accident happened in May, five years ago.
He went to the bar almost every night after her death. His ex-fiancee, Diana, fell from a ferris wheel. She was at the theme park and then it turned into a tragedy as she got stucked in the ferris wheel with her friend and in the end he lost her. Just when they were about to be together.
He ran to the hospital to meet her but they said she's already gone. That following week was supposed to be the day they become newlyweds. An unwanted tragedy.
But I came into his life in that loneliness. Even after five years, he still couldn't give me all the love I needed.
..... Now,
I am telling you a story.
I served as a waitress at the bar near the theme park.
"It will reopen in two more days. STUPID businessmen! One death isn't enough for them to close the theme park! " One friend said in the kitchen.
" Giada, you see that man over there. He cried like a river when his ex-fiancee died. She, Diana's the one falling from the ferris wheel," my friend told me.
He found me at the bar, serving drinks. He was lonely.
" I thought if I can find a new girl, I can forgive myself. We had Alyssa but I am .... I don't know. I love you and Alys--" he was lying.
"No you coward! You just dragged me into your guilt. You feel that we're nuisance to you. I came into your life. I wanted you to love me. Not to replace Diana with me! I am not a woman to be loved because of a guilt you had in the past. I gave you love! I gave you a baby and yet you can't even thank me for that! You feel that I am just a thing.... Don't you?"
Tears coming down my cheeks.
"It was a mistake. That night. In the hotel room---"
"So you got drunk, made love with me. You wished that I was your dead fiancee Diana. I am sorry that I am not her!"
I continued.
" I just ask you to behave like a father. Not anything more than that. Five year's a long time for you. But you chose to drooling over the past.
"No, I wanted to leave her too! The reality show's a mess now. I am late for the meeting. We need to get back to work. Baby, can we talk about this later?"
he begged me for all I know he's going to act like no father to my Alyssa and no man to a Giada.
"Say it that you can't take me into your heart, you can't take me into your life, if you can't replace Diana with me. She was your first love, you were supposed to be with her. She's dead now. It's not even your fault.
But...
You took me into your heart. You placed me into your world. Now you let me in. You put a baby in me. And now we're having a family. But you never take me as a person who loves you unconditionally. Even after I gave birth, you never think of me as your lover, wife, or a mother to your baby or even a special person in your life. I can accept that. People say that sooner or later you will accept me and Alyssa. Hella n0!
You thought I was Diana but I can never be her.
All I ever wanted is for you to leave her. 5 years have passed. You and I, we are a family now. Alyssa is ours. If you can never get rid of your love, we will never be happy, Frank.
I will leave you. You can keep thinking about Diana, replacing her with anyone you like.You just make the second greatest mistake in your life! Even with my love for you, my sincerity, our daughter, you just can't be a grateful man. I wish you will die with your Diana and your story " happily ever after". I decided to leave after a few more arguments with him later.
And that's how I got the custody for my Alyssa and I am now a divorced woman.
Unfortunately, it wasn't me who he wanted.
I can never be her.
God knows I loved him with all my life. For him, that night was a mistake. But for me it means something special. I had Alyssa with him, but he never loves me .
What breaks my heart even more is that he never says I love you or sorry. He only utters the word Diana whenever he's sorry.
P.s a very short one cuz I wanted to. Lol.
How many of you feel like this is the reality now or have you ever been in such relationship? To be loved or not, please do appreciate people who love you.
Peace to all my crushes, true loves, and the stupid unrequited love.
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